leaving and left

So I'm thinking a lot about all the people I've left and all the people that have left me. And now I am a ball of emotions (sort of). When my grandma died, that was leaving. But, she was in a lot of pain, I kinda left her before she left me. That sounds kinda mean, but I had to detach myself from her because it would have been too painful for me to pretend she'd get better. She only got worse.
One of my best friends left me, when it should have been me leaving him but I just couldn't. I always thought it'd be me the one leaving, since he was rarely a good friend to me. But I waited too long, and to my surprise he told me that we should stop being together. I thought that things would be easier, since at times being his friend was so hard. But I felt very empty and lonely. Just picking up my phone would remind me of him, since we'd always call each other when we were bored.
Whenever I think about him now, I only smile. He's a really funny guy and I always remember the predicaments we used to get in and the good times. I ran into him once at Village Pointe. He was with a girl, but I talked to him anyway. I really miss him.

34 days left of school

I anxiously count the days left of school (34 exactly). This summer I have a lot of plans. The very first week of summer, I'm going to Colorado for whitewater rafting with my cousins and family. I'm very excited for that because I love doing things out of the ordinary. I am also working at the waterpark, which is exciting because a lot of the people from last year are returning and I miss them. It's a pretty easy, fun job and we're like a waterpark admissions/concessions family.
A couple of friends and I are going to take a road trip this summer. We're taking the three and a half hour drive to beautiful Worlds of Fun in Kansas city. I know that this trip will be a blast since we all love rollercoasters. Hek, we might even go more than once. Maybe we'll make the trip once a week. Well, probably not that often but who knows.
Plus my family and I might go to Mexico since we have a time share. Or it might be California. We're still deciding.