dreams and hopes for next year

I have a lot of hopes and dreams for my senior year. In the rustler, I hope to letter and maybe take the column. I think that would be fun for me. School in general, I hope to keep my grades up and decent. I have a lot of tough classes planned for me, but I have to take them seriously. I plan on doing tennis next year, and I hope to be on varsity. And I'm hoping I won't get senioritis. That would ruin the whole keeping grades up plan.
As for college, I'm going to apply to several places. Like Missouri, and Minnesota, Omaha, and maybe Lincoln. Then I just have to narrow things down.
I'm very excited for my last year, and hope it won't overwhelm me.

leaving and left

So I'm thinking a lot about all the people I've left and all the people that have left me. And now I am a ball of emotions (sort of). When my grandma died, that was leaving. But, she was in a lot of pain, I kinda left her before she left me. That sounds kinda mean, but I had to detach myself from her because it would have been too painful for me to pretend she'd get better. She only got worse.
One of my best friends left me, when it should have been me leaving him but I just couldn't. I always thought it'd be me the one leaving, since he was rarely a good friend to me. But I waited too long, and to my surprise he told me that we should stop being together. I thought that things would be easier, since at times being his friend was so hard. But I felt very empty and lonely. Just picking up my phone would remind me of him, since we'd always call each other when we were bored.
Whenever I think about him now, I only smile. He's a really funny guy and I always remember the predicaments we used to get in and the good times. I ran into him once at Village Pointe. He was with a girl, but I talked to him anyway. I really miss him.

34 days left of school

I anxiously count the days left of school (34 exactly). This summer I have a lot of plans. The very first week of summer, I'm going to Colorado for whitewater rafting with my cousins and family. I'm very excited for that because I love doing things out of the ordinary. I am also working at the waterpark, which is exciting because a lot of the people from last year are returning and I miss them. It's a pretty easy, fun job and we're like a waterpark admissions/concessions family.
A couple of friends and I are going to take a road trip this summer. We're taking the three and a half hour drive to beautiful Worlds of Fun in Kansas city. I know that this trip will be a blast since we all love rollercoasters. Hek, we might even go more than once. Maybe we'll make the trip once a week. Well, probably not that often but who knows.
Plus my family and I might go to Mexico since we have a time share. Or it might be California. We're still deciding.

natural disaster

things I would grab out of my house in 10 minutes before the natural disaster struck:
my clothes- I love just about every article of clothing I own, I could not leave them behind (especially my concert tees). I would stuff them all in the biggest bag I own.
my purse- which would contain my wallet, ipod, cell phone, candy, and digital camera
my cat- I'd miss him too much if he was gone.
my snuggie- it was a gift from Megan Robertson so of course it's special, and I can reach for the phone while staying completely warm like in the commercial

hurting feelings

People who's feelings are easily hurt are not fun to be around. It seems that any small thing sets them off, and they put a damper on everybodies day. I always try not to let things get to me, and hurt my feelings. I'm really good at reading people, and when I feel like I'm not wanted I feel hurt. Whenever I feel unwanted, I don't act like my feelings are hurt. I just try to get away from everybody so I'm not in the way. Since I'm a girl, hurt feelings are a big deal and common. I think we're around it more then guys are.
I never like to hurt other peoples feelings. When someone else thinks I ment to hurt them, I freak out. I never mean to hurt people, but sometimes words just come out. But I feel like most words can be taken back, especially in the heat of a moment.

childhood memory of the teeter-totter

I childhood memory I remember is how much I loved the teeter-totter...

One day in my childhood all my feelings for the teeter-totter changed, though. My friend and I were having the times of our lifes flying up in the air then dropping down and over again. Suddenly I had accidentally let go of the handle while flying up in the air. I soon fell backwards and punmented to the cold gravel. Immediantly the recess teachers ran over to the scene of the accident and helped me up. I was escorted to the nurse, where I got band-aids slapped on my knees and elbows.

You might think that I never used the teeter-totter again. But just a short week later, I got back onto it, making sure to hold onto the handle with as firm of a grip as I could muster.

saturday feb 28, my fake birthday

February 29th is my birthday. Technically, I'm four years old. This year I don't have my real birthday, but I celebrate anyways. Saturday to Sunday I have a hotel room at holiday inn express. I always try really hard to make fun birthday plans for all my friends and I, but everything always ends up going wrong. Three of my best friends are fighting. And they've all said the same thing: I don't want to go to your party if she's going to be there. It makes me so angry that they'd be doing this to me. First off, it's not about them... for once. I spent all my money on this hotel room just so I could get all my friends together and have fun... and they don't even want to come because all they are thinking of is themselves. I don't believe in revenge, but I'm thinking of what I should do for there birthdays. How about absolutely nothing? : )
Of course I'll probably end up doing something really nice for them anyways. I'm not one for revenge after all...